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Thanks for posting this, Penguincoder! I hope you're doing as well as possible. I appreciate you and wish you all the best! 💖

I wish I was channeling my inner Meatwad, lol. For me it's more like "God has forced me to live another day and everyone is making it even more of a problem for me."

Everything feels hopeless, I'm in too much pain and fatigue, I'm sick of my broken body and fucked up living environment. My beloved cat is still riddled with mysterious tumors I can't afford to do anything about, which is fucked. I slipped into some stupid-ass self injurous behaviors again because I'm so overwhelmed with the hell and being useless and powerless. I just wish I could either be useful and capable, or cease to exist without hurting my poor sick cat or making some innocent person have to find a body, ya know? Bleh. (That's the short version)

Going well, got a new 3D printer (resin printer, Anycubic Photon Mono 4k) as a treat for myself. Also waiting on a call back from the addiction treatment people so I can finally stop the heroin and get back on the treatment medication.

Minor victories on Sunday (got VPN access to my home net working again), but the rest of the week has been a slog through pig shit and concrete so far.

I managed to patch a hole in my living room ceiling, built two microblock figures (I now have 3/12 of the set, and probably won’t get more even tho I love them) and did some decent cleaning. It’s not perfect, because adhd, but it’s progress, and all progress is good progress.

In the process of moving home from an upstairs flat to a bungalow.

Looking forward to having a garden after decades of not, but also there is space for a dishwasher! Also a loft that will save £40 per month from storage fees.

And a kitchen that's larger than a galley in a small boat.

It's my wife's first full day back at work after maternity leave - we had planned for her to WFH until Thursday but our backup battery installation for our solar array got moved up to today. They have to periodically cut our electricity to get everything wired up, so no WFH until they're done tomorrow or Wednesday. So today is also my first full day as the stay-at-home dad, which has been pretty good. Lots of picture taking to share so she doesn't feel like she's missing too much being at work.

We took a trip over to our local library this morning and signed up for the "1000 books before kindergarten" challenge and showed off our outfit for dinovember to the librarians (pictured below). I was at the library board meeting last week to weigh in on who should be our new permanent library director, and there were a bunch of us there to support the acting director's bid. There might be a board position opening up in the near future and I've been encouraged by some folks to apply/run for the position.

We also finally found a food our old cat is willing and able to eat reliably, after much trial and error, which has taken a weight off our hearts.

Today I had my first employee development talk (not because I've only been here for two years but because the company didn't have that concept until half a year ago) and it was very productive I would say. I mean it was scheduled 13:00 to 14:30 and we finished up at 16:45 lol

Sold my old car a few weeks ago. Finally got a new (used) car last Friday. I'm so glad for it to no longer be consuming some of my brains processing power in the background constantly.

I had a very slutty weekend, which was satisfying. I think I'm in heat. I think I've been in heat a lot the last few months. I wish I had a solution to this. Being slutty didn't really seem to solve the horny, although it was a nice outlet.

Work email inbox went from 0 to 60 unread messages 45 minutes after waking up. Spent the first 3 hours replying to emails and putting out small fires.

A third of the emails were from students essentially demanding we change the rules for them because their cases are exceptional (no, they didn't read the instructions and did something wrong and it cost them... literally, they didn't show up to a paid exam so there are at least 22 students who lost 260 euro).

Tomorrow there is a strike at my son's school, and I find out if the person I am replacing comes back. I will update here. If they do, I'll be passing the baton back to them with a big smile.

I'm over two weeks into a component re-write that I thought would be easy. TBF, it was easy, but the compression library I used had an annoying memory leak that took the better part of those two weeks to track down and squash.

was walking a client's dog and was attacked by an off-leash dog yesterday. fuckin' sucked. everybody is ok (i think? i didn't stick around), but the other owner was very entitled and seemed to think their dog didn't need to be on a leash??? even after it attacked us??? the client's dog (a very large german shepherd) reacted appropriately to defend himself (and probably me) from any damage. he disengaged as soon as the owner finally pulled her (collarless!!!???) dog away. i called animal control after because this is an affluent neighborhood, the owner was white, and i wanted it on record.

still struggling to cope with the election results.

got rid of a bunch of stuff via free stuff markets over the weekend. echo also came out to the second one to get pets from all the strangers, which she loves.

echo has her second rally video session tonight; fingers crossed for a good take so we can submit it for our second score. she got 97/100 on her first one, which is great! the three points off were all handler error.

the restaurant across the street had its last day yesterday after ~six months of being open. it wasn't that great. the place before—which was there for ~two years—was amazing. curious to see who will move in next. it's one of the few neighborhood locations for retail/restaurant, so it being vacant is disappointing.

• Getting over a pretty debilitating flu that lasted 4-ish days
• End of this week I take a 2-day train ride, which I'm looking forward to SO MUCH, so I'll have senioritis at work all week
• Finished up a couple different hands-on projects that all went amazingly
  • dremeled a non-safety-cut P365X-Macro frame for thumb and magazine safeties all by eye
  • finished assembling a rPi NAS for my dad's place that has spotty internet, so he can have a local 'streaming' service with movies and tv shows

Wasnt beeple a big NFT artist a few years ago?