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i (m, gay) have been with my bf (m, bi) for about three months. we are in a long-distance relationship, and we've been friends for a year or two now, maybe like october 2023. lately, he's been really depressed. when he's not depressed, he's just tired and overall low energy. he never really has a lot of energy to talk to me or anything like that, and even if he wants to, he doesn't feel like it from his depression.

he has had a bad childhood and has trauma and i feel really bad for him. i get really sad/depressed when he's depressed and he says i do help, but only a little because he's so empty. he also doesn't know what he wants, so i'm there to support him. he doesn't know whether or not he wants to talk to me sometimes either, so sometimes we take mental health breaks and come back once we're happier.

i don't really know what to do, it's also not like he lost feelings for me.

he comes from a fairly poor family with an abusive family member.

my bf of almost three months (we've been friends for about a year or two) is always feeling stressed, depressed, or empty. i want to help him, so im just there with him and remind him that i'm there even when he doesn't feel like talking or we don't have much to say.

due to his feelings, he also doesn't know what he wants, and while he loves me, he doesn't know if he wants to talk to me and be around me or not. it makes me really sad, he's also had a bad childhood. i wanna be there for him but he also doesn't know what he wants and i feel sad thinking about and worrying about how sad he is.

he's been reading my messages and not replying or being offline more than usual.

i was straight for a long time until i dated a masc-presenting enby (masc + neutral terms) and realized i was ok with having boyfriends and dating guys and masc people. now i don’t even know if i like girls so i’ve come full circle or whatever…

sometimes i feel like my mannerisms are too girly/unpassable even though im a guy (a trans one or under the umbrella like the community im posting in), like i know it doesn't mean anything, but someone told someone they wouldn't pass as male if they used emojis like 😭 or ☺️ even though my bf uses them all the time. idk, i know im a guy and there's nothing wrong with femininity, but still, this is a lil rant i guess

you can request some in the replies too and i can find some!! please also let me know if there is more that you know of to add!!

from what i can find and only some:

mandarin - fasheng.ing

portuguese - lemmy.eco.br

lemmy.teuto.icu

forum.ayom.media

lemmy.pt

lemmy.plaureano.nohost.me

spanish - mujico.org

feddit.cl

chachara.club

russian - rekabu.ru

shibanu.app

japanese - lm.korako.me

philosophy.cafe

fenmou.cyou

lem.ph3j.com

polish - szmer.info

fedit.pl

tech.pr0n.pl

lemmy.sieprawski.pl

german -

stammtisch.hallertau.social

rollenspiel.forum

lemmy.fedifriends.social

feddit.org

lemmy.klein.ruhr

zonenranslite.de

lemmy.hogru.ch

linz.city

french - social.ggbox.fr

jlai.lu

links.gayfr.online

kourjetez.bzh?

lemmy.coupou.fr

danish - feddit.dk

slangenettet.pyjam.as

swedish - aggregatet.org

feddit.nu

lemmy.ahall.se

italian - feddit.it

l.posterdati.it

diggita.com

lemmy.casasnow.noho.st

i'm currently using tesseract to view and post things, i've also heard of photon. are there any else?

that’s definitely me right now, sadly.