Lumelore

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[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 48 minutes ago (1 children)

I heard someone else suggest she should get a porta potty and wheel it around the house of representatives on a pallet jack and be annoying as possible with it. That way she can still piss them off and not have to risk any danger using the men's room.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 2 points 3 days ago (1 children)

I was about to comment the same thing lol. Even the video game part.

Honestly though, I feel like there's a chance I wouldn't have been surprised cause I feel like I subconsciously knew back then but just didn't understand it or know the words to describe it.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 3 points 6 days ago (2 children)

Thanks for the reply, I know of where I can get DIY, I'd just rather not get DIY unless I absolutely have to. I do have a small stockpile currently that would probably last me long enough if I needed to wait for DIY to arrive in the mail though.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 32 points 1 week ago

Absolutely! They taste much better warm than cold.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 1 week ago

Thanks for the reply! I'm a few months over a year in. I did recently get my e prescription filled, so I'll probably have to wait a bit, but I do agree that switching to injections is probably a good idea since they seem easier to stockpile.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 1 week ago (4 children)

Thanks for the reply. I don't know very much about injections but I'll ask my doctor. I do have a few questions though about how to stockpile with them. From your reply, my understanding is that they are only used for a month, but if I use a smaller gauge needle I could use them for 2 months, which would allow me to save every other vial? Is that correct?

 

I'm thinking of taking my dosage of 6mg a day down to 4mg a day so I can stockpile 2mg each day in case of an emergency. Or maybe every other day to stockpile 1mg each day.

I'm worried though about it negatively affecting me mentally, but I also know that if I do run out and don't have a stockpile, it'll be much worse.

Or maybe I could ask my doctor to prescribe me extra so I can stockpile without reducing my dosage?

Anyways, what are your thoughts on doing this? I know Erin Reed recently put out an article which mentioned it being done (which is what inspired me to make this post).

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 19 points 1 week ago (1 children)

4B on Wikipedia

First line describes it as gender critical... Then if you scroll down under the beliefs section is a section titled "Opposition to transgender rights movements"

I'm really hoping the American version of 4B stays far away from that.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 1 week ago

Yeah, I used to puppeteer a guy around so more people would like me as well, but I eventually accepted that some people are not going to like me no matter what. It's really important to be kind to yourself. Be who you want to be, not who others expect you to be ♥️

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 8 points 1 week ago (2 children)

I used to have the same issue as well with being envious of how cute other people are and being socially anxious. I'm only 2 years old than you, and I've mostly gotten over it and I'm sure you will as well with time.

I think what helps a lot here is working on your self confidence and self love. Chances are, you're also really cute and awesome just like those people you mentioned above.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 27 points 1 week ago (1 children)

They aren't supposed to be but if you have enough money anything can be patentable, copyrightable, or trademarkable.

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 19 points 1 week ago

I prefer this announcement instead. I like Nintendo games but hate the company for taking down emulators and sueing indie devs for a really dumb reason.

lol (image)

[–] Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone 13 points 1 week ago

Please persist. I know it's hard but those fuckers want us dead. Don't give them what they want. Our existence is resistance.

 

[Image Transcription]: Snoopy wearing a wizard hat making potions. Top text says "HOW TITTY SKITTLES IS MADE." Bottom text says "BOTTOM TEXT." In smaller font beneath bottom text it says in parentheses "i'm a bottom colon three."

 

So I'm wondering if I might have klinefelter's (XXY chromosomes) or if I'm just very receptive to estrogen because the effects of HRT happened to me way faster than I've heard other people say it happened to them.

I've seen charts like these and I am a bit dubious of them because my timeline doesn't match up at all.

image of chart

I don't know if my experience is actually normal or not, but when I started estrogen about a little over a year ago, it only took a few days for me to notice my skin being softer, and then literally the next day I woke up with breast buds and about 2 to 3 weeks later I had noticeable breasts that were big enough that it was difficult for me to boymode at work. I'm pretty sure I got to Tanner stage 3 in like half the time that's expected.

From what I've heard from others is that they didn't get breast buds until at least 3 months in and that made me question why mine happened so quickly.

I've also always been pathetically weak and it's also always been difficult for me to gain muscle. Which makes me think I had low testosterone even before I started spiro. I remember when I had my 3 month follow up, my t was at 89 ng/dL and I remember my doctor commenting that that was lower than he expected, although I have zero idea if that is actually lower than normal for 3 months on 100mg spiro.

I'm curious if any of you also experienced a similar timeline to me, or if your timeline fits the charts that I've seen. I know my timeline is quite fast and that it might be hard to believe (idk if my experience is normal or not), but I swear it is my genuine experience with HRT.

 

As of a few days ago, I am now 1 year on HRT! I typically don't like posting pictures of myself, but I also wanted to make a transition timeline and share my progress, so here it is lol.

transition-timeline-image

Estrogen is amazing. I finally feel like my body is mine and something that I need and want to take care of. Sometimes, I randomly think about my gender and being a woman and it makes me so happy, but overall I don't really think about my gender as frequently as I used to years ago.

I also started progesterone last month and luckily I am one of the people that respond well to it. My overall mood has significantly improved since I started it, and it also helps me sleep a lot better. I am now waking up early in the morning feeling energized which is something I have not experienced in a very long time lol.

I've also been working on my voice as well. I did make a post here about 6 months ago where I asked for feedback on my voice (which was really breathy and did not sound good). I think I have improved quite a bit since then. I'd really appreciate your feedback on it if you would like to critique it.

My voice training progress (youtube link)

 

First one was in a marching band, second one was in an IKEA float.

 

 

This is easiest done by sorting by Top of 1 hour, so there are only a few posts to scroll past.

When you get all the way to the bottom where there are no more posts to load, try scrolling down.

While you do that, any NSFW image that currently has a blur over it will have the blur squished vertically towards the center, allowing you to see the top and bottom of the image unblurred.

 

I am using kubuntu and recently my .desktop files no longer launch from my desktop. If I go to ~/desktop in dolphin I can double click the same files and they launch just fine from there.

When I do try to launch from desktop it just shows a blank file icon very briefly.

Only new thing I've done since they stopped working is install virt-manager and QEMU to set up a Windows vm.

I also tried creating a new user and the problem still persisted, which means it is not anything in my home directory.

I've tried googling but haven't found anyone with the same problem as me.

 

I'm currently studying CS and I'll get my bachelor's degree next year. I've been searching for remote SWE internships for months now and have not had any luck. I even made a project to put on my resume and it's still just rejection email after rejection email. Maybe I need more projects? What tips do you have for getting an Internship?

I really don't want to go back to my previous job cause working with old people in rural America as a minority is literally hell. I think I might just go into omega debt instead lol.

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Memories (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago) by Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
 

Was looking through an old hard drive today and I found some old pictures of me from before I transitioned. I only have a few of them because I didn't like taking pictures of myself back then (hmm, I wonder why? /s). I thought about deleting them because I don't like how I looked back then, but in a weird way they also made me happy. I think it is because they serve as a reminder as to how far I have come in the four years since I realized that I am trans. Comparing them with current pictures of myself, it is very obvious that I am much happier now.

I also found some old picrews that I made of myself shorty after I realized that I am trans. These made me really happy for multiple reasons. One is that they brought back a lot of memories. The other is helped me figure something out. I've been trying to figure out exactly when I had the realization and the best I had beforehand was sometime in late 2019, but those pictures are dated October 28th which makes them the earliest evidence of me being trans that I have. I made like thirty of them but here are two of them that I like.

Past me would be so happy to know that I actually look like this now:

This is an image that I think I used to come out to a few people. It's hard to see, but I decided to add some estradiol to my mouth:

Anyways, I just felt like sharing. I'm curious if anyone else also used picrew at first to explore their gender. Also if you have any transition related stories you feel like sharing, I'd love to read those too.

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egg_irl (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago) by Lumelore@lemmy.blahaj.zone to c/egg_irl@lemmy.blahaj.zone
 

I'm not an egg anymore, but I found this meme I made several years ago when looking through an old hard drive and wanted to put it on Lemmy.

Image description: Top text says "Me: 100% totally cis male." Bottom text says "Also me: A girl with girl stuff and girl hair and girl clothes." The bottom part is actually an image of a Minecraft skin that is posted on Planet Minecraft.

 

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