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The original was posted on /r/tifu by /u/Blackout_Mornings on 2023-08-11 20:05:16.
This is more of a preemptive TIFU but I can already feel the mounting dread and panic setting in and it’s only been 30mins.
Bit of background: my ex (nb 21) and I (f22) were in a six month, long distance relationship after around 5 years of friendship (we both had feelings for each other but were both hesitant about the distance) Not long by any stretch of the imagination but it genuinely was the best relationship I had ever had. Until it ended. And it ended badly. We were both going through some pretty rough mental health issues and both said things that we can never take back. And it completely ruined our relationship. We stopped talking and I regret that the most.
Then today happened. Its probably been a year since the break up and today I found a necklace that they sent me with their initials and I broke down immediately. It wasn’t until I saw the necklace that I realised how much I missed them and in the flood of emotions I texted them. And I’m already starting to regret it.
I won’t go into detail about the text because it was pretty emotionally charged, but the general gist of it was me updateing on them on where I am today and admitting that I love them both as a friend and more and that I really regret where we left things off.
It’s probably been about half an hour now and I can already feel the panic and regret building in my chest for multiple reasons. For one I don’t even know if they will reply to me. Another thing is I don’t even know if they have changed their number in the year where we haven’t been speaking. I feel like an idiot and I don’t know where to go from here.
TLDR: stupidly messaged my ex in a moment of weakness after not speaking for a year