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The original was posted on /r/tifu by /u/lwb03dc on 2023-08-11 17:54:04.
Mandatory not today.
I've been living alone in a new city for a little more than a year. I literally don't know anyone here except for my work folks who I don't interact with except for at work. With not much to do during my down time I got into online poker.
I have a decent job where I make around 100k a year and, where I stay, this puts me in the top 10% of earners. But over the last 7 months I've managed to lose 146k playing poker.
I primarily played PLO6. I started with buyins of 100, but soon moved to 500 and then 5000. I was losing often but only after I would run up insane scores. Similar every other day I would load up for 5k, run it up to 30k, proceed to lose it all, and then buy back 6 more times. I kept it mostly in balance with a couple of big cashouts, getting up from the table with, say a 70k profit, only because everyone else left. But I was a consistent loser, losing on an average 20k - 30k per month. My entire salary would go into this, other than rent and food. The last week or so of every month I would be counting my dollars to make sure I had enough to make it through. And then it happened.
I lost balance completely. Had a month where I lost 50k+. Blew through my savings, took an advance from work, then blew through that too.
As of today I'm down 146k, with 12k in debt and about 200 bucks to my name to last out the month. I don't have enough for rent this month and don't really know how I'm going to figure it out.
I am respected at work and seen as someone who is highly logical, analytical, practical and intelligent. What they don't know is that I'm also a degenerate gambler.
I'm sure I'll get through this. I have to. And I have to rebuild. But I just needed to put this down and share it with someone, even if it is just words in an empty sub.
Take care guys. Loneliness is a hell of a thing.
TLDR: Lonely well-to-do guy spends everything on poker. End up being lonely and in debt.