Platypus

AKA how are you surviving it?

Mom and her partner are going to a reunion with some neighbours, get drunk and whatever and invited me but i won't go. I know how those parties are and I hate being surrounded by alcoholic ignorant people and people I don't know... My little bro (16 yrs old) goes out with his friends. My other bro that is 5 years younger than me (he's 29 years old) Will pass the NYE with her fiance and her family in their families restaurant.

So I'll stay in my room alone again. There's no reason to go outside. The stupid fireworks won't let me sleep anyways so I'll play Xbox and watch some p*rn maybe. I know it can be seen as pathetic for some, but that's my reality and I can't do anything about it.

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Ready player one.

That has to be one of the cringiest movies I've seen, is tries so hard, too hard with it's "WE LOVE YOU NERD, YOU'RE SO COOL FOR PLAYING GAMES AND GETTING THIS 80S REFERENCE" message and the whole "corporation bad, the people good" narrative seems written for toddlers... The fan service feels cheap and adds nothing to the story.

Finally, they trying to make the people believe that very attractive girl with a barely visible red tint spot on her face is "ugly"... Like wtf?

Yet it received decent reviews plus being one of the most successful movies of that year.

I didn't went anywhere and stood in my room 24, 25 and 26 as usual... Why can't I just never wake up... I don't wanna go to work, I hate the people there but I need money and I most likely get fired at January

Fuck life. Honestly

The fact there's nothing I can't do to hurt him or his reputation in any way pisses me off.

Resident evil Deadly Silence

I already bought some presents, I rather stay in my room... There's nothing really to celebrate for me, I just want this to get over.

Xmas, new year, valentine's... Seems like the festivities are there just to remind me how much I failed as an adult man incapable of getting company. It's been over a decade since I've felt this way and nothing changes.

Alcohol and porn has lost its charm over the years.

I have a Samsung watch 6. But I dunno... I'm feeling like I wanna worry less about charging devices recently. And this Casio F 105 W looks great and was cheap.

Bonus question... Have you ever said "yeah, that fits" once you got a password?

Kind of a follow up from my question from a few days ago, for me just depresses me and usually I'm working or worried about stuff anyways so I don't know how to enjoy festivities, plus being eternally alone without a partner makes things even sadder. Xmas is more of a post it of how much my life has failed.

I don't have much, but I REALLY love my bomber jacket that I bought a year ago, looks good and makes me look good, I think.

Edit: after 2 edits that title still needs adjustments...

I'm at a point of my life that I would rather erase those festivities, they make me fall into a sad mood, especially new years, another reminder that yet another year has ended and that my life still unremarkable dull, lonely, without love and poor.

The temporary job I have currently is depressing but I don't have any other options, I don't have studies or preparation of any kind and I'm not a kid anymore, anti social and poor to getting out of this...

I was trying to get my driving license but I was thinking on giving up on that, the teacher is kind of an asshole and I dread the lessons, after so many I don't see progress... I'm only still going because starting from zero means hundreds of euro wasted, starting from 0 means another investment. I wish I wouldn't had started them, but I was being pressured by my family due being unemployed.

I have to go to work again tonight in an hour, night shift... I almost wanna get fired.

I apologise if my post is a downer, but this is basically the state of my life.