Last year in Brazil a rich right wing white man opened fire on the federal police and even threw grenades at them.
Here's a picture of him talking to the police after the shooting (he's the old guy on the left): https://www.cnnbrasil.com.br/wp-content/uploads/sites/12/2022/10/ED_VIS_241022_IL_PF_JEFFERSON_frame_935.jpeg?w=876&h=484&crop=1
I wonder what would have happened to him if he was a poor black man.
It's sad that the only two alternatives that you can think of are killing people or "letting them get away without anything".
I'm having a similar issue.
I lost my mother when I was 13. But, at that age, I was too young to understand the fragility of life.
Now, at 30, death scares me a lot. I had to deal with loss a few more times and it finally got to me. Now I am old enough to be able to understand what a "lifetime" is. When we are young, we don't have this knowledge: life looks like it will go on forever. But it won't.
I'm just starting to accept that my loved ones won't be here forever. And this shit is scary as fuck. But we need to learn to accept this truth and live with it. It can also help us to value life more, to be grateful for things we used to take for granted.
And we need to take care of ourselves, physically and mentally, so we can live, as we too are dear for our loved ones and they need our help.
I'm also dealing with anxiety, depression and panic attacks. Here's what helps me when I panic:
We have to be strong, but it's also okay to be weak. It's okay to cry if we need to. Just don't give up, because there's always good things in life to make all the suffering be worth it.
My father left this city 7 years ago, because he was having constant panic attacks after some thugs tried to rob us a few times. He went to live in a small, almost dead town, where sometimes he needs to hunt and fish to have something to eat.
So I agree, this anxiety is just my body telling me I should get the fuck out of here too. But I don't want to throw my whole life away, so I'll keep going, one day at a time.
It's winter where I live. Temperature should be around 10ºC but some places registered 30ºC. And this week we'll have our 4th hurricane of 2023. My house is old and I fear soon I'll wake up without a roof.
My anxiety is so bad today. I keep trying to find new ways to deal with it, meds, meditation, exercise, but how the fuck am I supposed to keep up?
Great! I'm enjoying my ice cream in winter, while waiting for the 4th hurricane of this year to hit my city. The last one ALMOST took the roof off my house, but hey, maybe this next one will, and then I'll get to enjoy a free rain bath!
Yeah, I need to hit the gym more. This week I managed to go only 2 times. But I agree that it helps a lot, it's just hard to have enough energy left to go after a full day of work.
AHDH caused me a lot of trouble in the past. I blamed myself too much. Now I deal with it a lot better, knowing that it isn't my fault, that I'm not just lazy.
Now I think my anxiety is being caused mainly from the lack of financial stability. For example, we just had a damn hurricane here in my city and the roof of my house almost went flying. I would have to sell my car to repair it. Maybe I will have to, because the climate is surely not getting better. Thoughts like this keep buzzing in my head all the time.
It sucks, there's far too many things that are out of my control. I just need to improve my ability of dealing with them. Smoking weed helps me to forget about problems for a while, but I still need to deal with them somehow.
Great answer. I'm not overwhelmed by the replies, so feel free to write to your heart's content hahah. It helps me and maybe it'll help others too.
I look forward to your meditation videos, it's a very interesting approach.
I have a lot of trouble with capitalism as well. Sometimes I feel that I've lost my sense of self. It's like I've turned into a part of a big machine, that is going to a place where I don't want to be.
The things you said to increase, like walking, nature appreciation, creativity (I'm a musician) help me to regain my sense of self and to find meaning in what I'm doing. Unfortunately, living in a third world country, with a lot of work for little pay, makes it hard to have energy left to pursue those things. But I'll keep on trying.
Thanks for your reply and wish you the best.
Nice, I'll try the 5-4-3-2-1 next time I panic. Thanks a lot!
Thanks, I will read it for sure :)
Good point. The ADHD meds were indeed cheaper than the rest, maybe I'll give it another go. Thanks a lot.
I'm poor, living in a 3rd world country, with no money for air conditioning. What the fuck am I supposed to do.
Guess I'll just have to enjoy (lol, like I can) the few years I have left.