Niklas Ekstedt's recipe is authentic, Swedish, and tasty AF. If you can't find venison, beef will do.
EDIT: I imagine this is one of those things where there are 1,000's of different "proper" recipes. I shared this one as the guy who wrote it is Swedish, so I thought there must be some authenticity there, and I've made it, so can testify that it's good. Not saying it's the best or the most authentic, so slightly confused by the commenters saying it's somehow wrong?
If it helps, you might want to consider not characterising emotions as "good" or "bad". It's too easy to think of yourself badly for feeling "bad" emotions - something I have done many, many times.
I try to think of emotions as useful or not. Sometimes feeling hate can be useful, if it leads to positive action. Sometimes feeling love can can be the opposite of useful, if it leads to negative action. When going through an emotion ask yourself if it can be useful. If it can, great! If not, then accept that, but don't beat yourself up for feeling a "bad" emotion. It's just not a useful one.
Nice one buddy! IWNDWYT