You're not doing anything wrong in my opinion. Some of us just don't get an endorphin boost from exercise.
I'm a marathon runner and I have never experienced a runner's high or whatever these other people get from normal training.
There's this chart about "types of fun" that finally made it click for me. Some people find the mundane training as "Type I" fun. Some of us have activities that are this and others that aren't fun in the moment. For me, skiing is type I. Running is not.
I run as a discipline, it feels good looking back on my calendar of training and seeing the work I've put in. So I get Type II fun from it. I like to say "I run for the medals" and that's mostly this concept. I don't run for the fun, I train for the PR or the "win" or a medal. It's seeing my work pay off, my discipline for months on end being paid out.
So it's not the running, it's achieving the hard goal I set. Anyway, I hope this makes you feel seen. It's really frustrating to see all the hype about endorphins or whatever being a mood booster, but that's not the reality for a lot of people.
Also good job on the consistency for a year! That's impressive! Especially without the mood boost other people get!!
Hahaha noooooo I wouldn't do that already!
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