James Earl Jones had a stutter during his childhood, and look where he ended up in his life. One of the things I commonly see is that talking and singing use different parts of the brain, so while you may have trouble with a stutter while talking, you may not while singing. That may be something worth looking into.

You might find some encouragement from the story of King George VI, who spoke with a stutter. If you haven't seen the movie The King's Speech, I highly recommend it.

Winston Churchill also had a speech impediment, and yet is remembered for his speeches to parliament.

I recognize that these were people of privilege and you probably aren't, so that makes things even more difficult. But I do believe that everyone can be useful and a blessing to those around them, even while dealing with a stutter.

I remember having a stutter at around age 5-7. I even still remember what it felt like when words got stuck. To me it felt like a kind of stress response. Once the stutter started it was kind of a self-reinforcing reflex. Don't remember exactly how I got over it, but I think I started preparing how I would say things and pre-vocalize, and once I had gotten the first few words out smoothly it went easier from there. After a while it stopped entirely.

I can empathize.

Had a friend back in school that stuttered. It was stressful as hell just watching him deal with it, so I can imagine how much stress it would feel like, even if he hadn't expressed much the same things you have.

He ended up finding some stress relief via singing, and only hanging around people that didn't put pressure on him.

Cool dude; haven't seen him in years though. He left the state for college (wrestling scholarship), and doesn't come back except to visit family, so we rarely have time to catch up.

He ended up doing technical writing, like for instructions and textbooks and the like. Freelance now, or was.

My aunt had a stutter (and my grandfather too, it's hereditary?) anyway she did speech therapy for years and is now a teacher.

I think speech therapy has strategies for dealing with stuttering.

You can try reading some work of "Prescott Lecky", maybe try to find a copy of his book, "Self Consistency, A Theory of Personality" he was a school teacher and he conducted an experiment on thousand of students, He used a method called 'System of ideas' to cure students of such habits of nail biting and stuttering.

You can give it a try.

I remember a video from way back, where man with a pronounced stutter(no pun intended) was speaking fluently.

An assistant handed him a pair of headphones that time-shifted the audio that he was hearing. I think it was about a 0.5second delay from when something was said, until it was heard in the headphones.

Fully enclosed, over ear headphones.

Worth a try to see if you get any change.

I'll see if I can find the video.

I can easily empathize, it must be exhausting to be the owner of a stuttering voice. Your experience with it and the emotions that followed are pretty much what I would expect any person that is hindered by their stutter to feel after a while. It's not easy

It is easy to be embarrassed by it, though gh, but it's probably in your best interest to just frigging own it. For the time being, you will have to work with/around/through it, so, if you can muster the strenght, you could just as well own the stutter with pride. You might not like it, but it IS you currently. Not being embarrassed might make convo's slightly less intense.

Good luck coping with it all. Love from the internet!