Melbourne

I wish Mum hadn't of damaged our relationship, we're both still reeling from the effects she had on us. She has all of our photos, all of our memories, abused Dad and I. And now we're trying to repair a relationship that shouldn't have been meddled with in the first place. Poor Mum was traumatised, and passed it onto us. We're both no contact with her, but Dad and I are still awkward. I mean, he's still hesitant to hug me, because when he would, when I was a kid, Mum would accuse him of being inappropriate. She accused everyone of being inappropriate, and I had no fucking friends. Ridiculous, Dad never hurt me. Mum's dad hurt her and me, but she still made me stay the night there.

Sigh, I just want a parent. I want my Dad. I guess I should just say all of the above and see how that pans out. If I can't be open about my feelings with my own Dad, then nothing is gonna change and I'm going to keep feeling like I'm pointless.