plyth

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[–] plyth@feddit.org 3 points 9 hours ago

It seems like you escape your inner conflicts by being industrious.

Not professional advice but instead of going, you could halt posting for a moment and focus on your breathing. It will assure you that you are safe, and you can let the conflicts become a bit more aware without feeling overwhelmed by the terror. Do this for some time and you create the space to transform your conflicts.

[–] plyth@feddit.org 2 points 22 hours ago

Same as with regular medicine, book a flight to India or Mexico.

[–] plyth@feddit.org 1 points 1 day ago

Totally. Only that I postponed the thing I had to do for even longer.

Your post made me realize that I postpone because I am afraid of hyperfixating. When I hyperfixate I do things that I don't want to be do, but that have to be done to make them right.

Like I expected, when I finally did what I had to do, I found something that was not right, and spent some additional time on it without being able to let go.

Here is an older thought about it: Could it be that ADHD is an identity thing? Essentially like transsexual but for being and not sex. Hyperfocussing is like wearing a mask, not out of fear of social reactions but from the inability of maintaining my identity. I lost my day by being afraid of experiencing being-dysphoria. It only ends when the fear of the consequences of inaction are bigger than the fears of dysphoria.