I wasn't referring to anything. I was merely trying to understand why you felt you could not write stories etc.
I do understand that the writing skills you currently have do not lend themselves to writing stories. However, I'd say that it may be possible to learn how to do so.
I am not sure what you mean about it falling apart in your mind, would you like to explain more?
Oh, hmm. Have you ever thought about going to get diagnosed and maybe meds or some such to help?