Ah yes! How could i forget about waiting mode. This is super fun times right here. 100% recommend!
Both tech and horses here...uh oh. ๐ alas, to damned expensive for horses and did't get back into tech after i moved to be withvmy husband., decided to randomly pick up horticulture as a career choice instead.
May have impulse purchased a group of these Hara jerdoni aka anchor catfish. They only get about an inch and could not resist! Just wanted to share because they are cool little fish.
Thanks, I said my good Byes Saturday while she was still conscious enough to respond, she passed Sunday evening at home in her sleep. I didn't want to stress her by taking her to the vet and she didn't seem to be in distress so I let her pass naturally. She had a good long life, trying to just think about that and not get caught up in sadness.
As for classes, I'm taking an intro to horticulture class and an intro to psychology class. This is a trial semester and i'm kind of testing the waters. I have a bad past record with college and am stressing over this but I must defeat my inner demons. Trial by fire I guess. I start next week and am already feeling a bit overwhelmed as I was just reading the class prep notes and am sitting here wondering what did I get myself into? I am just ignoring that particular inner voice right now. I can do this!
I kind of just have issues keeping my attention on either honestly, unless I suddenly get absorbed in the topic which does happen and then I marathon read/listening. I just do what I can when I can. At least listening i can just rewind when I fade off and I can do other stuff while listening where as reading I need to be low enough energy to sit long enough. I do enjoy the tactile feeling of reading a real book and flipping through the pages when I manage it. I apparently have 3 different books going right now and it's taking me forever to read them.
As for how I'm doing this week? I don't know, nervous about the classes I'm starting in a few weeks, trying to get back to where I was at before the holidays, some mistakes where made but I am forgiving myself and moving on from it. My cat is not doing well (she is very old) and I might have to say goodbye soon, I'm having emotions that I haven't sorted about the entirety of last year and trying to figure out where to go from here with the new year. All in all though I am okay and just taking it one day at a time.
This is so very sad and hurts my heart. And seeing as we are being serious here I will add that I was very close to being part of this statistic about a year ago. For so many of us it was not caught when we where kids and it is no surprise to me to see these kinds of numbers. And those are just a couple statistics, we also have more accidents, more unwanted/unplanned pregnancies, more chance of substance abuse, more other health issues do to poor choices and not looking after our needs, reduced life expectancy from these choices, the list goes on. I think it was Russell Barkley that talks of this.
I try really hard to make earlier in the day appointments now because of this. Of course once the appointment or whatever it is is done I still don't do anything else with the day because you know what? All that waiting was exhausting and now I'm spent.
Ooph, I feel this, I almost just got in an argument with my husband again about money spent...I'm going to go hide my credit card from myself now.
It's like Christmas all year round! I see nothing wrong with this! ๐
Thanks for sharing this. I didn't have a name for this feeling until I was diagnosed with ADHD and started learning more about it and all that comes along with it. Though I would not wish this on anyone else it is good to know sometimes that we are not the only ones going through these struggles.
Yep! Me too. 3 is the lucky number here! Though I do suspect living with undiagnosed ADHD my whole life led up to the other two. I'm just a bundle of fun over here.
My week has been okay. Work has been a bit chaotic running around trying to fix problems. At least it wasn't me that caused them this time and I was able to get brownie points for helping deal with it. My whole schedule was turned upside down and had to work a full week but I could use the extra money so I guess that is a win. I also found my security badge I lost last week for one of my accounts, so that was a relief.
I guess I'm just happy to have come out of this work week seemingly in a good place and that is a reason to celebrate. I've managed to take some steps towards figuring out passport and school related stuff too so it's been a good week mostly. We'll aside from the initial panic of not being able to find my badge. Literally saw it this morning randomly hiding in a box on top my dresser wedged in a corner. Not sure how it got there. I blame magic house elves. Anyways, it worked out as I needed it today so yay.
I usually just improvise and wing it. It stresses my husband out I think. He likes to plan. ๐