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rejection anxiety and real pain (lemmy.world)

submitted 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) by Mighty@lemmy.world to c/adhd@lemmy.world

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Hey there. I am incredibly sad, downright depressed and mentally exhausted.

I wanted to celebrate my birthday yesterday for the first time (maybe ever?) with lots of nice people. I invited about 30-50 people. Some, I invited personally, some just casually through groups. Lots of those people I thought of as somehow close and friendly.

I exhausted myself in the effort of preparing the party, I rented a room, I prepared photos, activities, food, music, and just put a lot of mental energy into the planning. I have been planning it for about 2 months, invited those who were most important to me back then even.

5 people showed up.

I am devastated. I was always so anxious about my birthday and never celebrated it. I think I removed myself from groups a lot in my life. And only the last two years, I've started to understand my diagnosis and how to communicate with people. This throws all my anxiety and pain back into my body and brain.

I don't know how to deal with it. Especially I don't know how to interact with the people that were important to me and who didn't show (or those who didn't even cancel). My past behaviour was burning down all the bridges. I don't think I should do that. But I also don't know how to pretend like it doesn't hurt....

Any advice about rejection anxiety and ... well, real rejection?

Thank you.

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[–] Mighty@lemmy.world 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)

So what happens then? You don't put in the effort and then what?

I can just accept this. None of these people live far out, I even have to work with some and see some of them weekly in a common space. So I can accept that I'm not the priority and then what...? Then I accept my loneliness and try to convince myself that it's better that way? Feels like that's what I've been doing the past 25 years and it's gotten me nowhere.

I need to somehow make connections to people and they don't all have to be super invested. I don't think I invested emotional energy into the people specifically, but more into the planning and the group...

[–] Thrillhouse@lemmy.world 4 points 1 month ago (1 children)

I don’t put in effort to the extent that it bothers me about it. If it’s convenient sure. If not oh well next time.

One of our friends used to get all bent out of shape because she would prepare all of this food for a party and no one would eat it. I was like girl, stop preparing food then if it’s making you upset. If people get hungry we’ll order pizza.

Sometimes the things you think people will be into are not the things people want to do.

Scale back. Neuroboring people don’t put as much effort into coworkers and social connections as much as I think ADHD brains do because I don’t think they think about it that hard. I learned this when I invited coworkers to my wedding and 2 showed up for like an hour - and I’m pretty sure one of them dragged the other.

People with kids are super flaky too.

I’m just saying yeah you aren’t the priority to these people. Find people who will make you the priority. Keep looking. These connections happen slowly and change over time.

[–] Mighty@lemmy.world 2 points 1 month ago

Thanks. I'm not sure what to say. It's the last sentence that gets me. I cannot hold these connections seemingly. I don't have the social stamina to keep in touch with people. And if I scale back my efforts, I don't think I will form any connections at all.

But I appreciate you taking the time to write to me.