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After a toddler accidentally shot and killed his older sister, a family’s wounds run deep (archive.ph)

submitted 4 months ago by awesome_lowlander@lemmy.dbzer0.com to c/longreads@sh.itjust.works

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“I know this sounds horrible, but do you know how hard it is not to have ill feelings toward a kid? How hard it is not to be upset at Jaxon? Do you know how hard it is?” she had asked the night before. “I have no one to blame. I can’t blame my kid. I can’t blame God because it’s inappropriate. I have nobody to blame. I have no outlet as far as taking out my anger, so I use my family and my fiance as a punching bag.”

In the car now, she turns the volume up so loud that conversation with her boyfriend becomes impossible. She grips the wheel tightly, looks straight ahead and mouths the words of a song as she steers a car that has, among other things, a loaded gun in the glove box. It’s a 9mm — the same caliber that killed Kimi — but while her anger bothers her, guns don’t. She doesn’t feel nervous around that gun or any other gun. She’s more scared of not having one. She still has a child to raise, and what if there’s an intruder, and that intruder has a gun, and she doesn’t? How would she recover from that? How could she live knowing she could have protected Jaxon but had decided she was too afraid to have a gun?

Jesus, how do you go through an experience like that and still maintain the same attitude and behaviour? They haven't changed a thing, they've still got guns lying around the house.

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[–] Sewer_King@lemmy.world 22 points 4 months ago (1 children)

How could she live knowing she could have protected Jaxon but had decided she was too afraid to have a gun?>

It doesn't sound like she's living well knowing she could have protected Kimi but had decided she was too afraid to not have a loaded and ready to fire gun.

[–] vxx@lemmy.world 13 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago) (1 children)

She's blaming the kid instead of herself or her husband.

The kid didn't place a loaded gun in the car.

[–] Sewer_King@lemmy.world 0 points 4 months ago (1 children)

I'm having trouble understanding the purpose of this clarification. I don't think anything I said disagrees with anything you said.

[–] vxx@lemmy.world 6 points 4 months ago

It's not a clarification, it's an addendum. I didn't disagree, but thought it makes your point even more wild that she would only have troubles not blaming her child and god, instead of looking at her own fault. (to the work out the guilt with a therapist. It's still a tragedy)