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I am very, very much a person who needs sex in a relationship, but both the dragon and his bf (who I have yet to meet irl but I'm going to do my damnest to make a good impression) are quite... almost asexual. Apparently the bf even more so. We have talked about it, and the dragon is well-aware of my needs (we were roommates at one point, and going on 3y of master/pet), and so it's awkward but he tries to be supportive, and that means a lot to me. And I'm demisexual anyway, so the fact that he cares about me so much is a turn-on of itself.

I also have trust issues. My ex, whom I was engaged to, broke things off in a very painful way, telling those around him lies about me, that I did this or that. I sought therapy as I wanted to kms, being in my 20s, a stroke "survivor", unable or extremely limited in the things I love to do, and then the person I love and would do actually anything for, rips my heart out with the emotions of a stone-cold killer. I was also bullied very heavily in school, people I thought were my friends were actually terrible bastards. I have few actual friends and every day I wake up is a day of suffering. But master is trying to make me feel better about myself, remind me that my ex was abusive, that I am worth something. It's hard - I want to be close with him, I like him very much, but I don't want to be hurt again. Everything I wanted, everything I loved, brutally taken from me. I can't go through that again.

... anyway ...

While I can't offer anything meaningful, I'm just a wolf-tiger-fox hybrid on the internet, don't give up. There are so many wonderful people in this community, and yeah some of us are the deviants that your mother warned you about (looks in the mirror), there are a good bit that I've bumped into that want more... meaningful activities from a relationship. You will find someone. friendly hug!