Autism

It can be so frustrating because it feels like any number of factors can be the culprit, from consuming certain drugs or alcohol which can impact sleep, which can then impact how your body and mind process and break things down, from natural hormone cycles, from unexpected life events that require more in-depth engagement than the usual routine, from what kind of food you're consuming and the sugar/fat/etc. content, to how often you are getting exercise and moving your body around... It's impossible to have a perfect and consistent day, week, month, or year, but it's possible to give yourself patience and kindness and the mindfulness to realize "well, today perhaps I hit my limit early due to factors beyond my control" and that's totally okay. There are days and even weeks when I feel great throughout and can feel on top of my social and productivity game, and, more often than not, there are days where I just can't convince myself to get out of bed, can't convince myself to get off the couch, can't see any reason to socialize or make healthy food choices or be productive, and sometimes that's okay, sometimes you just gotta be patient with yourself and do something that makes you feel comfortable and not stress out about what's "normal" or "right." We only get the one life, so I believe that instead of worrying if we fit the mold properly it's better to just do what makes us feel good and doesn't make the world worse to live in, if we can. I hope you can reach your goal of a week long meter some day!! But don't beat yourself up if it feels like you aren't making the progress you want all the time ❤️