My mom had been emotionally manipulative that it instilled in me that showing affection in anything will result in that thing being used against me. If that's not enough, she mocks me for the things I've shown interest on, usually telling me it's "useless" or "a hindrance". Later on, I learnt to fake emotion and attachment to things that I could very well afford losing. Moreover, if I can lose everything and anything I love at any moment, there's really no use being attached to anything.

Anyways, I was ready to acknowledge that it's but one aspect of parenting. Parenting is hard, having seen my parents deal with us siblings, and then seeing my siblings deal with their own children. Parents (as a rule) try their best to raise their children in the best way they know how, for better or for worse. And even if my mom did gave me this trauma I've given up in dealing with (long story), I still love her.