me_irl

You should stay on your meds. If they're not working, talk to a doctor about alternatives.

You also need to get away from your mother or family generally, curing depression often involves a whole life overhaul, and changing your environment.

You have to let go of the animosity and frustration you feel with your uneducated mother/parents using whatever swamp-voodoo witchcraft they were taught and never learned better. You will literally burn yourself and become as bad as them if you allow this to be a "force" in your life. So either learn to exist within their ignorant sphere and not let them in on your life and plans and feelings as you work on yourself and make outside friends and connections, or leave entirely.

We all have only two choices in life about anything. We can change our situation or change how we feel about it. Anything else is just validating our own unhappiness, and you don't have a lot of time to play that game.