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Man none of my dreams ever make sense. They’re not usually true nightmares, but occasionally. They’re never fun or relaxing, they’re always a little bit WTF, but somehow my brain still tells me, yeah sure, this is all real! And then I wake up confused. Always been that way. I’m jealous of people who have nice dreams. I’d rather have none at all rather than the junk my brain throws at me.

I had a dream the night before last that I was in an abandoned movie theatre and suddenly we got attacked by ghosts. I was the only one that could see them. The ghosts took the form of puppies and babies that I had to fight using a metal cafeteria type tray, so I was flinging ghost babies into the air with it.

Weird dreams are my normal but I usually forget them.

Something with diphenhydramine or doxylamine? They aren't great to take for very long at all.

But if you notice a dependency, I don't recommend the RX sleep meds I've been on for so long. One was effective for a very long time (15 years? Lunesta I think) but has gotten weaker and weaker. I'm terrified of stopping it though, its a nonbenzodiazapine so it binds to the same stuff as benzos. Taking something so long like that is bound to cause problems when I stop.

I've heard therapy helps. But I'm not sure how. Hasn't done much for me.